Christmas is coming and with it people sickness.

Its the one thing everyone mentions when you move a fair distance. Its something you are aware of from day dot. YOU WILL MISS PEOPLE. You never realize how much until you have actually moved.

I am fine most of the time. I just get on with life. Then something happens, something good, something bad just something and the people you want to share it with most are so very far away.

With Garry and his mental health issues It was the isolation that made it harder for me to handle. The people I know would have been able to help me cope or talk to Garry were all on the other side of the world. Some people really have no equal.

I am constantly amazed at how much I miss Garry's Nan. That women is fantastic shes loud shes brash and she is one in a million. I will never ever forget how she welcomed us into the family. Uncle Gal and his brood. I miss him even though when I first met him I thought he was an obnoxious bellend! He is like mould he grows on you hahaha. My boys adore this man. The feeling is mutual. They don't have anyone like that here and that makes me sad.

I miss my Jojo I don't have that all holds bared female friendship over here and cannot see me ever loving another friend like I love Jo.

I miss my grandparents. They are growing old and frail. It scares me I may not see them alive again. My grandparents have probably been the biggest influence in my life.

I miss my mum. That's all I need to say.

I am missing out on my sisters Children. I have never even met Harry. To them me and mine are not family they do not know us.

My brother has his engagement party this weekend. I would kill to be able to be there. They told me today they are expecting there first baby. Such joyful news. Yet its had me on my knees crippled by what I refer to as people sickness. Ah well tomorrow is a new day.