By the light of the moon

Every evening as night starts to fall,
I look at the moon and think of you all.
Separated by oceans and many miles away,
you enter my thoughts at the end of each day.
How I miss all the things we used to share,
How I miss simply having you there.
So now when I am lonely or feeling blue,
When the craving hits to share things with you,
I look at the moon shining up there,
The very same moon that we all share.
So the next time you look up at the end of the day,
Be sure that I am thinking of you half a world away.

2 years down the line

Today sees me celebrating or perhaps commiserating. Why you ask? Well today marks the 2 year anniversary of landing in Australia. I can clearly remember the excitement mixed with trepidation as we disembarked the flight at Sydney. I managed to forget I had baby food in my hand luggage whoops! It was a warm evening and there were palm trees blowing gently. As we climbed into Gals mum and dads car I felt terrified. What the hell had I done. I did not know this branch of his family. I had no idea how I would cope in warm weather and I was terrified of creepy crawlies.

I can still remember the incredible tiredness that lasted a few days. The fact that I checked my shoes before I would put them on and gave the bathroom a thorough inspection before I could bring myself to use the loo. The terror was mingled with an incredible excitement. We had done it. We were  all embarking on a new life in Australia. Things slotted into place quite nicely in those first few months and despite the gut wrenching feeling of missing loved ones I was optimistic about our future.

I have told before how it didn't quite stay like that. Its been a tough 18 months financially and emotionally. So two years in how do I feel? I'm hoping easier times are around the corner. I could easily blame Australia for the bad time we have had, but I wont. Whatever happens I am still glad of the chance to live somewhere this unique glad that my children have experienced this.

So I shall drink a toast to celebrate how strong I am to have coped with all I have had too. I will drink a toast to celebrate how well my children have adapted. I hope Australia will forgive me if I also shed a few tears for what I lost and left behind.

Christmas is coming and with it people sickness.

Its the one thing everyone mentions when you move a fair distance. Its something you are aware of from day dot. YOU WILL MISS PEOPLE. You never realize how much until you have actually moved.

I am fine most of the time. I just get on with life. Then something happens, something good, something bad just something and the people you want to share it with most are so very far away.

With Garry and his mental health issues It was the isolation that made it harder for me to handle. The people I know would have been able to help me cope or talk to Garry were all on the other side of the world. Some people really have no equal.

I am constantly amazed at how much I miss Garry's Nan. That women is fantastic shes loud shes brash and she is one in a million. I will never ever forget how she welcomed us into the family. Uncle Gal and his brood. I miss him even though when I first met him I thought he was an obnoxious bellend! He is like mould he grows on you hahaha. My boys adore this man. The feeling is mutual. They don't have anyone like that here and that makes me sad.

I miss my Jojo I don't have that all holds bared female friendship over here and cannot see me ever loving another friend like I love Jo.

I miss my grandparents. They are growing old and frail. It scares me I may not see them alive again. My grandparents have probably been the biggest influence in my life.

I miss my mum. That's all I need to say.

I am missing out on my sisters Children. I have never even met Harry. To them me and mine are not family they do not know us.

My brother has his engagement party this weekend. I would kill to be able to be there. They told me today they are expecting there first baby. Such joyful news. Yet its had me on my knees crippled by what I refer to as people sickness. Ah well tomorrow is a new day.